My Mind

Hi, today I would like to talk about how my mind works. The human mind is a confusing thing. Well, mine is anyway. It may not come across to some people, but it feels like I'm fighting a constant battle against my thoughts because I overthink think a lot of things and I try to divert my thoughts to keep myself from getting worked up or upset over them.

Sometimes I find it very difficult to not think about things, even if my family and friends try to help me by saying things like "don't worry" or "calm down", I do try to listen to them. My biggest worry is my future, I don't know what it's going to be like, I don't know what kind of things I'm going to be doing, I don't know if I will lose the ability to do things. Most of all, I don't know what the people who are going to help me are going to be like. Honestly, the future scares the hell (more than that) out of me.

Sometimes I can't not worry, it's just about impossible for me not to worry. Luckily, I have found a way of quieting those thoughts down, the power of music, it doesn't get rid of them completely, but it certainly helps because I can focus on song lyrics.