ASD, CP and Mental Health (Part 7)

I have always known that it shouldn’t matter what other people think about me, but I always have these thoughts in the back of my mind saying that something is wrong with me and I’m not good enough.

As Pink (P!nk) says in her song, “You can push me out the window, I’ll just get back up. You can run over me with your 18 wheeler truck and I won’t give a fuck”. I don’t know about you, but this says to me that you shouldn’t let anything or anyone tell you to change or stop being who you are. My mum has always supported me throughout my life, and I know she has my back, but I even struggle to talk to my mum about my feelings. I hate that I can’t express how I feel, especially when talking to my mum.

Anyway, Pink has taught me a huge amount about how to accept myself. Pink/Alicia Moore has been my idle for years, and the more I learn about her, the more I am in awe of her. Lyrics are so important to me because when I don’t understand my feelings, I turn my music up and listen to the lyrics, and Pink’s songs help me understand myself. She has helped me through so much and she has helped me in many ways, some of which have been incredibly personal so I can’t elaborate on this, but I do know that I wouldn’t be where I am now if I didn’t have Pink to help me through it all. "I AM HERE"!

I hope that Pink will read this one day and know how much she means to me. I have always been a fan, and I love this incredible woman more than I can even begin to explain! Pink has taught me so much. It's so weird to say how much I love someone I've never met! I have seriously never loved an artist more than Pink... Bloody hell, if I ever meet her, I don't know what I'd do! I'd probably cry so much that I wouldn't be able to speak, so I'd write her another letter and hand it to her.

Pink, please don’t ever change. You mean a hell of a lot to me! Thank you from the bottom of my heart for everything you do. Thank you for helping me to accept myself, thank you for standing up for yourself, and thank you for standing up for others who may not have the opportunity or confidence to stand up for themselves. I love you!

I don’t know when I’m going to publish these posts, so there may be weeks or months between writing this lot and posting these, but I have to remember that even though I’m struggling and I don’t know why I’m on this rock that people call Earth half of the time because I don’t see my purpose, I do know one thing: I may not like myself and who I am sometimes, but I am a normal woman, just with a few extra struggles… I know that I’m a fighter! Deep down, when my head is on straight, I know that I’m never alone, and you aren’t either!

As Pink says, “Don’t forget, as scary as it gets, it’s just turbulence"!

To anyone struggling, please don't give up. Reach out to someone, talk to a friend, family member or someone completely random. There is someone who loves you...

Useful Contacts:

MIND: https://www.mind.org.uk

Email address: info@mind.org.uk Phone number: 0300 102 1234

Samaritains: https://www.samaritans.org

Email address: jo@samaritans.org

Phone number: 116 123

Merry Christmas and a happy New Year, everyone! See you in 2025!